A beater VS new?

so I have thought of a way to get a car! I am just gonna put back like 50 every paycheck and than buy a beater!!!! I am actually kind of excited! Cheap insurance, cheap parts! cheap cost and as long as it gets me where i have to go I dont care what it looks like! I just hope that putting 50 away is enough! Than I can get a job, and pursue my various interests lol. I used to think I was never interested in anything. I could never think of any hobbies I enjoyed. Now I have had some time on my hands and I have thought of quite a few things that I would love to try! Thats where the car comes in lol! Car=job=school!!& other things like yoga! Now if I can actually save the money haha! I did want a cute little sportsy me type of car but it would just be to much to afford right now! plus beggers cant be choosers! I am excited!

fun fun

ok so across the street there is a bunch more townhomes, there is always this lady outside tanning and she always has her stroller out there, but i have never seen a baby in it? it just sits out there rain or shine? I dunno i think its kind of weird lol. So i have decided to like it here. My husband and I are getting along good, the kids are doing better and my sister is getting motivated to start college! I am excited for her and plan to go with her hopefuly it doesnt get to crazy around here lol yea right im dreaming :)

Family fun?

So we went to DC on sat is was fun, tiring but fun. I am lets say a worrier! I cant help it, i drive my family crazy, but i think you can never be to careful! So the whole time we were in the museum I was constantly stressed out cuz 3 kids all wanna go 3 different ways!! Oh my husband and I ended up fighting a little. which I absolutely hate!! But over all I had alot of fun, and all of my kids were really interested in the stuff there! It was so cute to watch them get all excited and ask question. All of us cant wait to go back! tho next time we will hopefully be better prepared (bring a cooler! and kid leash!! lol). I have heard the aquarium there is awesome! So hopefully next time we can get to that! We saw the white house from a distance, it wasnt as impressive as I had thought it would be but it still was beautiful and grand! :) I honestly never thought i would leave my home town. Its so awesome that my family gets to experience these new things! I am so grateful!
And also one of our friends from our last duty station happened to be close by and he came by to hang out, brought an awesome woman with him!! :) We all went out to this little bar it was alot of fun!! My weekend was quite awesome!!!

life in general

sometimes no matter what you do life is hard, it doesnt matter if u are doing what ur supposed to or not. It just cant always go ur way. Y? thats what i wanna know/ shouldnt everyone be able to pursue their dreams? I guess it doesnt always work that way. last night i told my husband I wanted to go to school. I am tired of sitting around doing nothing, I am not satisfied with my life. My life, not my family life, my family life is fine I love my kids and my husband! But there has to be more to fufill my days. I feel all antsy. but anyways i told him an he just said hmmm. an than he got mad cuz i was keeping him awake? I dont really know if he doesnt want me to go? or if he was just tired. it seems like since we moved here we dont talk anymore. Ya know when you have been with a person for a long time? (10 yrs here) Do u sometimes wonder about where that person went to? how do ppl change and become completely different? Sometimes I get so aggravated! I want to smash something. Lucky for my family i have managed to keep my anger reigned in lol. I guess I am to the point where I want to do this! I want to better my life, my kids life and i want to show them that women are more than just moms and wifes. I dont want my kids to come home from college and think wow my mom is stupid lol i want to be able to hold an intellectual conversation with them when the time comes! And I want them to GO to college! I want them to know that it is important! So if I dont do it how will they know? I dont want them to struggle and i want them to respect me! and I want to be able to afford to save for college, my oldest is ten. i have no money saved for his college at all, it scares the hell out of me! I know that there is benifits to having a stay at home mom, but my kids are all gonna be in school soon, than what am i gonna do? I also wqant my kids to have respect for me! I love them with everything in me, its very impoprtant to me to make their life better in any way and i believe a college degree and a good job will help with that, so I can save money for what they need, or if they need shoes i dont have to worry about what bill i am gonna have to cut short to afford them!! Dont get me wrong my husband makes decent money but we are a 6 person household. There is always something that we need!

what a week

ok i dont know bout u but i hate going to the cell phone store it always takes forever! but this last time i went it took 3 hrs!!! I could not believe it and than i still had to go back the next day for like another 2 hrs the next day. I absolutely hate cell phones!! but i am absolutely lost with out mine lol, and to make matters worse my husband said he didnt hear me tell him i was leaving, an when i got there they had to turn my phone off so he couldnt get ahold of me. ugh sometimes men are not understanding at all!! He did apologize, but he did it thru a text. im not sure what to think about that, at least he did apologize tho, i also apologized, thru a text loloh my gosh :) my kids hate fish, which i of course love, so does my husband. I need to figure out some ways to disguise it!! I have also been trying to have my family eat healthier but it is so hard so i decided to start a food journal gonna be a pain, but if i keep with it maybe it will help to change our eating habits. I worked this weekend sanding a wood floor oh man i am so sore!!! It didnt seem that hard but my muscles ache!! but it was so nice to work! I loved it! I need to find a full time job and daycare! I need to get out of the house, for a little while each day And a job is the most benificial! Or college but need to get some other stuff worked out first! it was such a good weekend tho and the guy i worked with was quite interesting to say the least! He was different than i thought he would be, but I am sure that I turned out to be a little different than he thought I would be also lol

wow

so my grandparents had the 52nd anniversary! YAY! its crazy who would think a blended family would make it this far? My grandparents were both married once before they married each other, My grandmaother married a "skirt chaser" and had a son. My grandfather was married to a woman "skirt chaser" an had 2 children. But they were brought together and had 3 more children (how my grandmother raised 6 kids ill never know) My grandfather was an airforce guy. So I know they had struggles. But they persevered and they loved and they are still together. It gives me much to hope for. If they can overcome everything that they did and still come out swinging. and still love as much as they do, I know that I can do it to :) My grandfather takes such good care of my grandma! i hope I am as lucky as her! An my grandma is an awesome woman! She has emphasema an I have seen her struggle thru this. It hurts to see her struggle the way she has. I love my grandparents so much! An have so much respect for them!! LOVE YA GUYS!! HAPPY 52ND ANNIVERSARY! CONGRATS

ok first thing i have to say is nobody should be up at this hr!! I had it all planned to take my husband to work cuz there is all kinds of things i need to do but cant get done cuz we only have one car! so he wakes me up i get up and start getting dressed an he starts complaining (he says he wasnt complaining but i cant think of any other word for it) that he is going to have to walk around today, ugh! So basically he agreed to let me take the car but didnt think i would get out of bed, so i just let him take it. but we need another car or something!!! I dont care if it is a hoopti or anything! How is a mommy supossed to do mommy stuff if they cant ever leave the damn house! An when he gets home at 6 after i cook dinner and everything its like 8 an than i dont wanna go anywhere! Sometimes being an army wife sucks! not that there is not good stuff also, but sometimes it still sucks!